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Letter meme

Last week maybe, or maybe it was the week before, Alex ashmedai did a 'letter' meme where someone gives you a letter and you write about three or four words starting with that letter. He said he would give a letter to anyone who asked so, I did since I feel I haven't actually been participating in LJ as I should.


He gave me the letter S:
First word that came to me as I lay try to sleep was:
Stories: both reading them and writing them. Whether long stories or short, whether written last year or a hundred years ago, I love to read and I love to write, stories about fandom or about my own little world, maybe even more so about my own little world. When my dad died, reflecting on my own someday, I realized that I didn't so much mind dying for myself, as long as Lauren is settled, but that I minded that all the little people who have populated my head since I was t10 or so, would die with me never having had their stories told. So, to my satisfaction, I am.
Next came
Science: When people ask me what I believe in, I tell them science and not just because of what all the different sciences can reveal to us about who we are and where we live, but also about how science is done. While the goal matters, it's the journey that really counts and if it turns out that some long-cherished tenant of some beloved theory is proved wrong, eventually it will be discarded and something new will replace it. Moving ever forward.
Next came:
Sound: Actually sound & sight because since I'm somewhat lacking in the one -sight, I make up for that lacking with the other -sound. My world is full of sound, music is a constant because it grounds me, almost as if the music defines my borders. When I walk into a place with little or no sound like someone's quiet house, I feel disconnected, ill-at-ease, almost like in a void. Plus, I hear things others don't, far off distant things, the roar of a motorcycle for way too long, dogs barking in garages, a freakin' car alarm several blocks away that woke me up the other night and that then went on and on and on.
Finally, a lot more words come to mind but I chose:
Safe:Something I have pretty much always felt, but now no longer really do, living here in America. Movie theaters...nope, not really. Malls...not so much. College campuses...well, Santa Cruz is probably okay. I listen to the self-proclaimed 'good guy' NRAers and they scare me, seriously scare me. They don't make me feel safe, they make me feel vulnerable. I don't want to live in their world, one where it seems like a whole lot of people have just given up on even pretending to be civilized. It's like The Wild West all over again. How fun!! Like my husband, David, said 'I don't want to have to worry about whether the guy at the next table in the restaurant has a concealed weapon or not'.

Two hundred thousand people almost immediately joined the NRA after 20 five-year olds and five of their protectors were slaughtered. Record sales at gun shows...everywhere. Oh hell no, don't ask me for no background checks. What thehell good"ll that do? The criminals will still get their guns so, why the fuck do anything at all, right?? Notice how the NRA is using women as their spokesmen on CNN and elsewhere. Very clever. Still, I believe here are a lot of straight white men in this country that hate, women, blacks, gays, whoever, and they demand their right to be armed. Not all NRAers are haters, not all gun owners are irresponsible, but enough are that I no longer feel safe. I'd been thinking about wanting to leave this hotbed of liberalism I live, but now I'm thinking, maybe not. Rant over.

Okay, well, that was longer then I imagined it would be. Sorry if I blather on.

Wanna ask me for a letter?? Come on, you know you do. Right?

Comments

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ashmedai
Feb. 14th, 2013 01:12 pm (UTC)
I believe in more than science, but science is easier for me to believe in. It's frustrating to me that we don't have proof for everything (or that we can't disprove a lot of things).

Plus, I hear things others don't, far off distant things, the roar of a motorcycle for way too long, dogs barking in garages, a freakin' car alarm several blocks away that woke me up the other night and that then went on and on and on.

Same here, I hear sounds and frequencies I'm actually not supposed to be able to hear (at least not as a human - lol). That's why there's no such thing as absolute quiet to me; even the dead of night is full of sounds. I like to keep things as quiet as possible though. Music? Almost never, and never as background - it'd drive me crazy.

Totally with you about gun control.

Sure, I'll take another letter. :)
gaeln
Feb. 23rd, 2013 09:02 pm (UTC)
I think most people do believe in something beyond science or physics. I'm just one of the weird ones who doesn't. I have no need or desire and I don't really know why.

I remember your talking about your hearing ability before and I thought how amazing it would be to hear beyond what the average human does. For me, the music drowns out all the other, less desirable sounds, almost like a wall, like I'm surrounded, protected. Without it, it's like I'm standing in an open plain, with no mountains on the horizon. Scary.

Okay then, I'll give you another letter. How about 'H'? And if you've had that one already, let me know. I'll happy change it.

ashmedai
Feb. 23rd, 2013 09:33 pm (UTC)
I think most people do believe in something beyond science or physics. I'm just one of the weird ones who doesn't. I have no need or desire and I don't really know why.

That's cool with me. I really think that if we all thought the same, believed the same or disbelieved the same, we'd end up with a terribly one-sided view of the world. So I'm glad there's a lot of diversity.

For me, the music drowns out all the other, less desirable sounds, almost like a wall, like I'm surrounded, protected. Without it, it's like I'm standing in an open plain, with no mountains on the horizon. Scary.

That makes sense, I have another friend who uses music like that too. For me, music is too much sound, i.e., too many different sounds, so if I can't focus on it exclusively, I get overwhelmed by it easily. Everyday sounds I can tune out unless they're very loud, sort of like selective hearing. I don't know how that works, though.

"H" is good - thanks! :)
herefordroad
Feb. 14th, 2013 03:30 pm (UTC)
Hi, Gayle!

your thoughts were not only interesting, but we think alike in many ways...especially your thoughts here on Safe and Science.

maybe someday we'll be able to talk about it in person. i'm still poking around at the map and looking for sunshine and real estate.

have a great day...

Jeannie
gaeln
Feb. 23rd, 2013 09:33 pm (UTC)
so happy to see you around, even if it has taken me forever to comment back :)

I know that we do think alike on many things which is so cool especially about science. One thing, I feel very safe here, It's elsewhere that concerns me. I haven't checked yet on condos around your price range but I will and then, will let you know what I find.
fansee
Feb. 14th, 2013 07:42 pm (UTC)
Letters
I am so sorry you feel unsafe. I'm not saying that's an irrational feeling, but it must undermine your enjoyment of life greatly.

What really seems irrational to me is how prevalent the love of guns is. More and more statistics indicate that the people in the most danger are those with guns in their home: settling intrafamily disputes and suicides. Samantha went through a very dark period last semester, and I am so thankful she has no access to a gun, not here, not at her father's, not at John's. Otherwise....

I'd love to have a letter but I'll bet my words will be defined much more frivolously than yours. FanSee
gaeln
Feb. 23rd, 2013 08:27 pm (UTC)
Re: Letters
Where I am I feel safe enough, here we pay for people to sell-back their guns. Still, you never know anymore. I'm so sorry to hear of Sam's bad time last semester. At that age especially they have trouble understanding that things don't last forever and do sometimes make irrational choices. I only hope, am pretty sure, she's doing much better now.

I give you the letter 'L'. Have fun!! Oh, and there's not set number you need do. Four or ten, it's up to you.
film102
Feb. 19th, 2013 11:10 am (UTC)
A letter meme
gimme a letter, gimme, please?

M Lyn

Edited at 2013-02-19 11:10 am (UTC)
film102
Feb. 19th, 2013 11:37 am (UTC)
I, too, love to write, read, and tell stories. Read and tell stories most. Unfortunately, when people often want a short and sweet answer, they get a story as well. Or fortunately as the case may be.

I love my blog and using it like a journal, an incubator for storytelling, a place to go on about my passions.

I believe in the known and the unknown and like Tom Wingo, it's the mysteries of life that sustain me now. The knowable always changes and I am headed to the unknown and connect with it in some vague fashion I can neither describe or explain; I Just know that the closer I get to the time I transition, the more the veil is parting or lifted or perhaps blowing gently like a gossamer curtain.

For me, science, psychology and spirit have their places and I can't believe in one without the other. There have been and are too many miracles and "coincidences" in my life and coming from a family where two parents had life after life experiences makes it all real to me and believable.

You'd feel so disconnected in my home, I fear. There is no music, only sounds of fans cleaning air 24 hours a day, alarm radios that come on promptly at 12 and 5 am. Smell is overwhelming to me at times. I kept getting a perfume into my home and couldn't figure out where it was coming from since my outdoor air no longer is blocked off from getting to the furnace.

I discovered it is what I put in the drain in the basement utility room when it gets low enough to get to the furnace. Weird. Once I put more in, there was no perfume. Go figure.

The only place I don't feel safe is on the road and I'm claustrophobic in large numbers of people.

Enjoyed your post very much. Love learning more about you, Gayle.

M Lyn
gaeln
Feb. 23rd, 2013 08:40 pm (UTC)
Enjoyed your post very much. Love learning more about you'
And through you learning more about me, I learn more about you, although I already knew you liked stories.

I very much liked your ideas about 'transitioning', they must give you comfort. Personally, I don't give it too much thought since, honestly, I have no belief in an afterlife. In someways though, I do envy those who connect with that. I just know I can't beyond 'we are all made of atoms' kind of connectedness.

Smells for me, like for you apparently, are generally negative, I seems to be allergic to a great many of them and try to do what I can to filter them out of my life. I'm all about 'scent-free'!! But music, yeah...I need!!

Thanks for your thought-out comment. I appreciate your taking the time.

And I give you the letter 'T'. Have fun!!
film102
Feb. 24th, 2013 03:28 am (UTC)
And I really appreciate your saying "I appreciate your taking the time," instead of "you taking the time which is grammatically incorrect and yet has been used so much that it has become part of the language and usage, I guess. I appreciate you is a transitive verb with an object whereas I appreciate your taking the time which is I don't know what anymore. I'll look it up.

Thanks. I really enjoy these kinds of meme's?sp?

Oh, my, what t's to use? <think, think, think...." M Lyn
flashfly
Mar. 11th, 2013 04:04 am (UTC)
I like all your S words, Science and Stories particularly.
gaeln
Mar. 12th, 2013 12:08 am (UTC)
They were Nos. 1 & 2 on the list, but really as a condition of life, sound probably should be no. 1. I am never without music.

You were going to ask me for a letter, weren't you? ;D
flashfly
Mar. 12th, 2013 07:25 am (UTC)
Was I?
gaeln
Mar. 12th, 2013 06:18 pm (UTC)
Yes, yes you were. Come on, you wanna play, don't you?
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