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Day Five
  Three Gratitudes_15/ 63
          I'm grateful;
13_that Lauren and I had ten years of week-long summer vacations with my dad before he died.
14_that Lauren was old enough and willing to help me for six weeks during her 13th summer with everything I needed to do, and what a help she was! while going through and fixing up my dad’s house so I could rent it.
15_that David and I were able to take Lauren to Chicago & Boston for one week each and to New York for two weeks in her middle teens.

  One Positive_5/ 21
A situation on LJ has impacted me negatively and wanting to talk about that, I realized that Lauren would not only know what I was talking about, but could understand why I was upset. When we talked, she immediately got why and patiently listen to me rant while offering good advice. I don't go on much about LJ or fandom with RL friends because I know that they can't really understand, they haven't been hanging around being involved for the past 9 to 10 years. Lauren understands.

          I did one act of doing something beyond the normal, well, I tried to do something beyond the normal because, while I can sometimes imagine that some certain news will impact someone, someone I don't necessarily know all that well, negatively and I may even think of an way to help, I don't generally put my idea into action thinking the situation will resolve itself satisfactorily without me. This time, I made an attempt, a sincere attempt that I believe helped.
          I did exercise, by starting a little regime, something I've been meaning to do anyway, of face exercises using this book.
          I did meditate, using my iPod, this activity, after only five days, is starting to be something I look forward to doing.

Sixteen days to go.


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Well done with your missions and I wish you all the luck :)

Thank you. I still have several more tasks to go, won't be done until the last day of September, but I am making decent progress as I am sure you are too. With this little 21 day meme, I'll have at least one more mission101 task complete and then it's on to the next one!!

I'm glad you had Lauren to talk to about fandom. This is a tough subject with non-fandom/LJ folks - they truly don't get it.

I tried to just imagine explaining this to my 2 closest RL friends and realized that there was just no way they could possibly understand. One thing...we have each other and even if you'd never read one of Brian or Randall's stories, you would still understand and that's pretty awesome in and of itself. Fandom/LJ situations like this, in some ways, seems to bring the rest of us even closer.

BTW I got all gleeful when I opened my email a found a bunch of comments from you!! Glad you're back and hopefully feeling good.

When you first wrote this, I didn't know about the Brian/Randall situation. Now, I do and I'm sorry for how this has affected you. I've read several posts and really feel for those who believed in them for so long. I hope you are feeling better now.

iz okay, many more were much more affected by this then me. I really had no idea though, of the extent of fiction created by a woman named Carol. I'm just glad that it only took me a day or so to get my priorities straight, that she's what mattered, but I did.

Your grateful memory of weekends with your father moved me deeply.

I'm glad you were able to do something "to help" despite wondering if it was worth it.


Those ten week-long summer vacations with dad started when Lauren was 3 before which, while my mom was still alive, I didn't have the moxie to fly from northern to southern California, just me and her since because of work, David couldn't join us. Oh, and we had such a wonderful time. Thanks for understanding what this would mean.

I didn't want to say all this on my first page, but she is someone more into Brian and Randall than me and I could tell from her journal, she was unaware of what was going on so, I emailed her asking what she knew. She sent me her phone number and I called her. I don't this sort of thing, Carolyn, but I really didn't want her to just find out. I'm glad I did.

You did a good thing. While a read a bit of Brian/Randall stuff, it never fully appealed to me so I didn't follow him/her. I'm just said so many were impacted because of a perpetuated lie. If it had only stayed as a pen-name it wouldn't have been so bad, but accepting gifts and contacts is where I'm sure the betrayal grew.

thank you and I agree, we all write under a name not our own, but actually setting up a twitter account is seriously jumping the shark.

Something I wouldn't do

I think we all think of times when we could intervene or offer advice, but don't because on inertia or not wanting to seem pushy (or both). Good for you, overcoming your inhibitions. FanSee

Re: Something I wouldn't do

Exactly!! And thank you, I was glad I reached out.

Like you, I tried reading both Randall and Brian O. and neither of them captured my interest. I think I managed to read one entire Brian O., but I never went back for more. I didn't get that far with Randall. So I just didn't care about the 'Carol' scandal. FanSee

Randall, along with Ethan, brought me here, although I really only read a couple of his stories while I read maybe three or four of Brian's. It was the idea of 'them', the two of them, they seemed so cool and together and, as I now see, too good to be real. I miss the idea still of 'them'.

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