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Happiness Month_Day Fifteen

Day Fifteen
Six Gratitudes_45/ 63
          I'm grateful:
43_that as late as it was, after several unsuccessful tries, I finally was able to carry a baby to full-term
44_ that David and I have, so far, enough money to pay for Lauren’s ever increasing UC tuition
45_that I love and respect and admire my daughter completely

           One Positive_15/ 21
Although the day began drizzle-y, by 8:30am, when I left to get Lauren, it had cleared up somewhat. The drive was actually nice because, since it was overcast, the light was easy on the eyes, without all that lovely dabbled sunlight. We arrived back around 10:30am, brewed some tea and talked and talked and talked, very nice!
         I did one act of doing something beyond the normal: I kept something to myself I normally wouldn't have that is better kept to myself. In other words, I restrained myself and that can only be a good thing and is definitely something beyond the normal.
          I did exercise: No, just...no.
          I did meditate: No, just...no.

Six days to go.



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Mar. 21st, 2013 07:49 am (UTC)
LOL! I'm glad I'm not the only one struggling with the exercise and meditation bit.

Aw six more days and then no more posts?
Mar. 21st, 2013 10:15 pm (UTC)
Oh for me, especially the exercise, it's just so...unnatural :D I think though, I have found a way with the meditation, I hope so anyway.

'Aw six more days and then no more posts?'
I like how you've incorporated aspects into your nearly daily posts so, what I've been thinking is maybe doing this once a week, maybe as a sort of weekly wrap-up. What do you think?
Mar. 22nd, 2013 05:35 am (UTC)
I like how you've incorporated aspects into your nearly daily posts so, what I've been thinking is maybe doing this once a week, maybe as a sort of weekly wrap-up. What do you think?

Sounds good to me! :)
Mar. 21st, 2013 08:33 am (UTC)
I have been very bad at commenting, but I wanted to say that I'm enjoying your posts a lot :)

And I think it is wonderful how you feel toward your daughter. That's how it should be :)
Mar. 21st, 2013 10:10 pm (UTC)
No worries, sweetie, I remember you said you were very busy and thank you, I've been very much enjoying doing them.

'And I think it is wonderful how you feel toward your daughter. That's how it should be :)'
Thank you. I only want, like you, the same for every child.

And you're icon say it right.
Mar. 21st, 2013 09:39 am (UTC)
sounds like there might be a concern about money for Lauren's education. I'll pray for that for you.

Don't you love days like that and the drive sounds great!

Doing these meme's sounds like it is hard for you or are you proud of doing this every day for 14 days, is it?

I looked at my calendar and saw that every day last week was white and I was so tickled. I get motivated by bright stars, tiny ones. The big ones mean I went to Curves or to the gym.

Driving takes energy and focus and is tiring.

Mar. 21st, 2013 10:07 pm (UTC)
Re: money
There's only concern because the costs keep going up and they're already crazy high to begin with, but the UC system here is saying that they probably won't be raising tuition this next year so, things should be fine. Thanks for your concern.

It was a very nice drive. When crowded with trucks and cars, the drive from here to Santa Cruz can be treacherous, but early in the morning, it can be very nice. And yes, driving especially winding mountain road does take focus and timing. the problem can be those who, because they drive it everyday, drive way too fast. I'm still trying to learn to just take my time :)

YAY!! for white stars!!

Mar. 21st, 2013 03:46 pm (UTC)
I bring you blueberries.

You were very good yesterday. I confess to curiosity about the restraining yourself. After a day spent biting my tongue, sometime tipped the scales and I donned my shield and crossbow and took off, to champion my younger son (all six foot tall and two hundred pounds of him) against his choir director (all five foot nothing feisty diva of her) because she had unfairly and harshly reprimanded him in front of others for something that was not his fault. Not to get into the whole story, but it really bugs me when people make unfair demands, and then react badly and unjustly, and then, when called on it, do one of those non-apologies, "well, I didn't do anything but if you were upset, then I am sorry for it."
I held my ground until she issued a real apology. Damn it. I can deal with people giving me a raft of grief, but I really lose it when they are unfair to my husband or kids, who are much nicer people than I am.

Meditation--nope, me neither. This was to be my year for yoga. Still trying to get there. Maybe April?

Exercise--see meditation.

Daughters--yes. It is a lovely thing when your daughter becomes a woman that you really like a lot. I did not have an easy road to that point. I believe you have always gotten along great with Lauren, and where once I envied that, I no longer do, because while I am very happy for those who have that, my daughter and I had a lot of bad history in generations of bad mother/daughter relationships to overcome, so where we are now was hard-won, and all the more precious because of it. I saw how great she was with other people though, and envied it, but am proud of me for not letting it turn bitter, (ala past generations) and I admire who she is and can say now, part of that is my influence. (And acknowledge that she really improved on the brand in her own unique way). So while my sons and I have a very different relationship that is great, and I love it, there is a special bond between my daughter and me that I now would not trade for the world. And I can accept that she and her father will always be closer without being crushingly jealous. :) After all, he is a pretty cool guy.

So, there are good things always. Even with unfair people to deal with. Thank you for reminding me.

Arwen, who spends WAY too much time talking about herself, such a narcissist...but she did bring blueberries!

Mar. 22nd, 2013 10:28 pm (UTC)
Lauren is a lucky daughter.
Mar. 23rd, 2013 03:23 am (UTC)
'Lauren is a lucky daughter.'
She really is ;D And thank you.
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