CHAPTER TITLE: All My Little Soldiers_Fifteen_of One Hundred
RATING: this chapter: PG
WORD COUNT: this chapter: 750
WARNINGS: this chapter: none_Editors POV
DISCLAIMER: Nothing I can say that hasn’t been said already. Not mine.
Originally Beta’ed by herefordroad, all subsequent mistakes are mine
Story throughout contains excerpts from The Brian Kinney Operating Manual including commentary from the Editors
SUMMARY FROM THE EDITORS: ‘But since these are chapters that haven’t even been written yet, let alone sent to editing or proofreading, we’ve reached our conclusion.’
The Editors do their very best to briefly explore the nature -- the who not the why -- of Brian’s New Kind of Tricks
AUTHOR‘S NOTES: This story projects 59 years into the future and reflects all that that entails, many of the loose ends are tied-up. I dance with POV, I dance with time, in essence, I just dance to the song Brian & Justin sang to me.
Contains: Brian_others, Justin_others. They grow old, they are always together for just as long as time allows but, ultimately, they will die.
As someone wise once said, ‘In the end, it’s all about Brian and Justin’ and I can only agree
A Time From Now
All My Little Soldiers
Tricks - The New Kind - Pittsburgh
The Brian Kinney Operating Manual - A Life Examined
the chapter titled - ‘Brian and His Coping Methods - Sometimes They Work, Sometimes They Don’t’
Between the time Justin leaves for New York and the time when Brian finally does, he has five, for want of a better term, long-term tricks, who in one way or another help him keep his sanity. Each and every one of them is, for a time, a soldier in Brian’s nighttime-nightmare army. Justin will only ever know about three of them and that, we can’t help but believe, is just the way it should be.
Two of them are perfect gentlemen, they understand what is expected of them, they play by the rules, and they leave, more or less quietly, when it’s time. Brian remembers them both fondly and even more so as time moves on and they become veiled by fading memory into something even finer then reality had actually allowed. Justin will know them both.
One soldier, a man bigger, stronger, and older than him, Brian lets stay too long because initially he likes the idea of someone else being in control once in a while. This is not a lifestyle choice Brain is familiar with, the idea of being able to completely let go after all the grind and pressure of daily life is something new and kind of nice and for a short while, he closes his eyes and just lets it happen. Lulled, and not unreasonably, by Brian’s not-paying-attention, the man gets seriously out of control, becomes demanding, possessive, even threatening, When Brian finally realizes something needs to be done, the man refuses to change. He decides ultimately he wants to keep Brian all to himself.
At this point, we could provide an in-depth analysis of how things were ’allowed’ to get so out-of-contro,l but it’s complicated and we really don’t have that kind of time. Suffice it to say that the man becomes confused, forgets that they‘re just playing, he starts to think he actually has complete control over Brian. Simply put…the man gets very lost in the game and Brian, sadly, allows it to happen. But before he has to actually take steps to straighten the situation out, the situation does that for him. The man’s business partners move the business out-of-state and the man has no choice but to move with them. Brian is at once relieved and so much the wiser having been given the opportunity to relearn that most valuable lesson…give control, complete or otherwise, to No One. This was something that he’s obviously known all along but had forgotten just for a moment. It happens. This is the first soldier Justin will never know about.
Two of Brian’s trick-soldiers will really, actually, fall in love.
The first of the two-who-fall-in-love puts up such a sweet fight, always shaking his pretty dark-blond head in refusal when Brian reminds him he really is just another trick that he becomes very hard for Brian to resist but he somehow manages. And the harder the trick tries, and he really does try very hard, the more he fights to change himself in Brian’s mind, the more he fights to take Justin’s place, the more Brian realizes he won’t be around as long as he should have been. He should have lasted the whole four months, probably could have lasted even a little longer if he’d only figured out how to relax and just…be. Because, and we do know this for fact, Brian really does like him, but before his time, he’s gone and nearly forgotten. He’s the second, and the last, of the little soldiers Justin will never know about.
The fifth little soldier, the second of the two-who-fall-in-love, never really does go away; Brian decides not to let him so…he stays. Justin will know about him…all about him, in ways not even Brian does. In the beginning, he makes Justin afraid but soon enough Justin realizes there’s no need. Eventually he comes to love this fifth little soldier almost as much as Brian does, in his own way and honestly, how right is that?
But since these are chapters that haven’t even been written yet, let alone sent to proofreading or editing, we’ve reached our conclusion. But rest assured that eventually they all will be written and proofread and editing and finally even signed-off on with the finished copy sent to our facilities in Michigan for print-on-demand (POD) to be made available, free-of-charge, to anyone who‘s interested.
Next Chapter: Lindsay reflects about visiting Americans & the expanding definition of family
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